We have tried twice, but Riley has not started chemo yet. Her white cell count is too low and they don't feel comfortable doing it...which I understand. But now we are wondering why it is not coming back up :( Its possible she is just taking a while to recover from surgery, or its possible she has a problem with her bone marrow or an immune problem. I constantly worry about her every day, I know there is nothing I can do, she is acting pretty normal for the most part right now Its just hard to let go and not worry about things.
I think I am in a mini depression right now, I just don't feel like I have things to look forward to I guess (which is totally not true, I am going to Moab this week and Dana is coming out to visit) I was trying to lose weight and that stopped when Riley got sick. I come home every night and I don't do anything, I sit on my fat butt and watch TV, its like pulling teeth to even get enough motivation to do laundry. What else can I throw into this depressing post (nah I'll stop there). I guess what I'm trying to say is... I'm in a rut...how do I get out of it?
3 comments:
You are loved Mush.. I'm sorry you are going through this right now. I hope you can enjoy yourself at Moab. Sending you lots of love xoxoxo
hang in there michelle. you will get thru this. i love you so damn much.
You spend time with all the people who love you. Know that even the people you don't see often love you and are here for you. XOXOXO. I miss you and wish I could be there for you.
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